Confession by TFQ I had a life changing paranormal experience when I turned 21. It led me to searching for others who had similar encounters, finding Supernatural Confessions in the process. Having listened to you guys for almost two years and after much deliberation, I decided to tell my story. I would like to remain anonymous, please and if it’s ok with you, I do not want to further discuss my story. Much like when you wrote your book as a form of closure, I consider telling this story to be closure for me as well. Thank you for listening to my confession.
I was having a small get-together at home with some friends and family the week after I turned 21. My neighbor's son, a little boy about 4 years old, was playing in the corridor in front of my house like every evening. My mom called out to him to give him some cake. The boy ran towards my mom happily, took one look at me, halted, and his expression changed. He ran back to his house, stood behind the grill gate and stared at us in fear. Eventually he ran into his house and was out of sight. My mom and I exchanged glances, as we went back to whatever we were doing at that time. The incident rattled us a bit, but I tried to put it out of our mind. My mom, however, has a belief that children can sense things. She felt that the incident was not a small matter. Little did we know then, of the horrors that were about to unfold. That night I had a dream of this long-haired black figure crawling on the walls of my room, chasing me through places that looked like empty subway stations connected to malls. “I will kill your family and anyone close to you,” it threatened. I woke up crying and shivering. That intense fear I felt in the dream did not leave even as I woke up. I ran out of my room and found my mom in the living room doing her morning prayers. It was 6am. I told her what had happened, after which she told me to pray with her before going back to sleep. Since that first dream incident, I started sensing the figure even when I was awake. It would come to me particularly at night and in the early mornings. I could not see its physical form but would get a very clear impression of how it looked in my mind and was aware of what it was. It was a dark figure, badly burnt in the face and body with no recognisable features. I could only make out its long black hair hair, and burnt black hands and legs. I got the chills whenever it appeared near me. Growing up, hearing all sorts of hantu stories from my grandparents and aunts, I knew that I should not be afraid when these kinds of things happen as it would allow them to have a stronger hold over me. So whenever I felt the presence coming close to me, I gathered my courage and recited prayer verses. Sometimes, I would stare angrily at the general direction of the presence to show I was not afraid. But none of that worked. Bedtime was when I was most fearful and felt most vulnerable. I soon started developing insomnia because every night I could feel it standing by my bed, just staring at me angrily. I played prayer verses out loud from my phone every night and tried to get as much sleep as I could by facing away from where I had felt its presence, but when I fell asleep, I would be rudely awakened as if someone was strangling me. I would feel fingers on my wrists and neck, while my entire body was paralyzed. I tried praying and keeping spiritual talismans on me, but nothing worked. The disturbances went on for a month and it had an effect on my mental and physical health. At some point I was feeling so frustrated that I was ready to end my life to escape this nightly and daily torment. One night, I felt the presence of another entity. Again, I did not see it with my eyes but instinctively had impressions of how it looked in my mind’s eye. This new presence looked like some kind of Chinese deity wearing a gold crown or headdress. There was also an animal that looked like a pig with him. I kept my mom updated about all of my encounters. After that last dream, my mom felt that hoping the dreams were just a phase wasn’t going as planned and called my grandfather in India to ask if he could come down to visit me. My grandfather is somewhat like a spiritual practitioner and had on previous occasions helped other relatives with supernatural cases. When he saw me, the first thing he did was to talk to the entity haunting me. Later on he told my mom and I what it said: The spirit, that of a recently deceased girl, and a deity, was very angry with me. I had walked past an altar a month ago, and together with some friends, had been rowdy and disrespectful - apparently we had been laughing and walking loudly. (“Walking loudly”? What did that even mean? I was like Whaaaat?) As it happened so that during that time, a ritual was ongoing where the deity in the altar was invited to come to help the girl who had died tragically to pass over to the other side, and our behavior had interrupted the procession, offending both the spirit and the deity. The girl spirit wanted to exact her revenge on me for ruining her chance at peace. My grandfather held peace talks with the deity and managed to appease his anger. We also had to cook a big feast as an offering for the deity and the girl spirit. Afterwards, I told my grandfather about the neighbor’s boy who had run away after he saw me, he said, "Oh, he must have seen the burnt lady standing behind you and got scared. Who wouldn’t?”. My grandfather also told me that this incident has opened my third eye and I would "sense" things sometimes from now on. You would think that the story ended right. Yes, that one did, but another was waiting to begin. I waved goodbye to my grandfather at the airport and went home. The next week. I started seeing spirits near me, especially when I was home. There were twelve of them, and one lady was wearing a saree. She was the one who kept making herself known to me. I didn't get any impressions of the features of the other eleven people, although I knew that they were near me. My ability works like this, I get impressions of entities that want to be seen. If they do not want to be seen, I cannot sense them. I can also clearly sense particularly strong entities regardless of whether they want to be seen or not, be it good or bad. I can also understand what the entities are trying to say if they want to tell me something. I cannot, however, see or hear them with my physical senses. I was really frustrated, as my supernatural problems had ended, only for new ones to start. Anyway, these twelve had a leader. I could sense him the strongest. It was a male presence, I got the impression that this entity was some kind of spiritual master but never saw his features clearly. I felt their presence around me during the evenings and the night, from around 6pm to 4am. At first they did not do anything, just made themselves known. One night, the leader started telling me things. I just understood what he had to say, telepathically. He told me that he was waiting for me to come of age and that he wanted me for himself. He said that stars in my fate aligned for him to "take me" as I turned 21. He then offered me a choice - To willingly turn to him or for him to take me by force. He added that he waited for my grandfather to take care of the previous problem so that he can have me to himself. I remember being horrified, sitting there dumbfounded thinking what the fuck had happened to my life. I immediately told my mum about this and she became really worried again. The next day, I heard the woman wearing saree telling me that he would take good care of me, that I would want for nothing and I should let them take me. I told her to leave me alone and that there was no way I would let them do anything to me. They started turning malevolent, letting their presence known to my family members. My parents would also feel dark presences near them and unexplainable weird sounds every now and then. We all started feeling very drained and tired at home. My dad made mistakes at work and got reprimanded by his boss. I was feeling angry and helpless and lost focus on my studies. When I worked at home, I would feel like snakes were crawling all over me, or something heavy pushing down on my shoulders. I even sensed them doing some rituals near me when I was sleeping. I didn’t know exactly what they did, but I could understand them chanting something in my mind and doing some kind of rituals. We contacted my grandfather again and told him about the new encounters. He said that he sensed they were breaking our protections and wishing harm on me and family with the rituals. I also started hearing them in my mind, threatening to kill me now and then, especially when I was crossing the road. Once they even threatened to cause an accident to the bus I was traveling on. A few weeks later, my grandfather flew back again to Singapore. He talked to the entities and told me what he knew: He said that the leader spirit had seen me when I was 14 or 15 years old, and desired me for my looks and pure soul. He waited for me to come of age before taking me. He and his minions had been the reason why I never had any romantic relationships. They would keep any male attention away from me. My grandfather managed to trace the origin of this group of entities and found that they lived on Kusu island near some big tree. I did not know the details of what my grandfather did, but he visited the place with my father and had a big spiritual fight with the group and somehow forbade them from coming near me ever again. My grandfather performed some cleansing rituals on me and gave me talismans as an added protective measure. From then on, I have had no disturbances, but was scarred by my experiences. I have stopped watching many horror movies and will immediately leave a place if I feel any unnatural presence. I also try to ignore these things as much as possible. |
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