To me, meditation is a boring activity of just sitting down and thinking of nothing. So I was intrigued by the notion of a meditation course and what it could offer. A course is something you would go to learn a new skill. I hardly consider “not thinking” to be a skill.

But the course was recommended by a Lersi of repute, and one does not just ignore advice as direct and clear as this - “go sign up for basic meditation course, you need to strengthen your foundation first because right now you are WIFI no password.”
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Wifi No Password. That’s the term I use on commoners who are prone to getting possessed. Fancy it being used on me. Touché.

I hadn’t always been this sensitive to the spirit world but eleven years of dealing with the unseen has somewhat thinned the veil. Incidences in the recent months leading up to my meeting with the Lersi were suspiciously supernatural in nature. According to the Lersi, spirits were attracted to my vibrations. The accumulation of negative energy had gotten so bad that to those with the sight, I look like McFarlane’s Spawn with a billowing shadowy cape made of dark entities.
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It was cool to imagine but the revelation worries me.

To reduce my affiliation with the dark, I need to increase my vibrational energy so I can connect with the Devas instead. The Devas are benevolent supernatural beings. The biblical equivalent that most people would understand are the Angels. This would require me to follow the 5 Buddhist Precepts (similar to the 10 Commandments) and undergo proper basic meditation training.

“Not for healing, not to see aura; not for chakra,” Phra Goh announced. He then asked us what is our purpose for joining this course and I thought about what I would say if he called on me? I didn’t have an answer that I thought he would have liked; and that’s precisely the type of mindset that this meditation can help overcome.

For most of us, we overthink things and complicate matters in our daily lives. Human beings have two dominant emotional states - hatred and greed.

When we are happy, we are hooked to that happy feeling, and we want more of it. That desire to chase happiness, at all cost, is greed. When we are upset, we look for things to blame, and wish it never happen. That’s hatred.
The approach that Phra Goh emphasise on is impermanence and compassion.

“If you need to sit on a chair; sit on a chair. Don’t need ‘pai say’. Meditation is training of the mind, not the body. We don’t want you to suffer in pain for the next one hour,” Phra Goh said. “For those who are seated on the floor, if you can’t adopt the lotus position, you can do the reverse lotus.”

There were some confused looks around.

Phra Goh continued in his calm, deadpan demeanour: “The reverse lotus is how you normally sit cross-legged. But you can’t tell people that you attend meditation course and sit cross legged. It doesn’t sound professional. So let’s call it reverse lotus position. I made that up myself.”

The quick witted of us caught on with the joke and laughed confidently, the rest joined in a beat later.
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Such is the charm of Phra Goh, that he is able to reach out to his participants across a diverse age group and background with humour to put us into a relaxed state.

First he had us close our eyes and imagine our hair: How they would grow, and fall away, and new ones would grow, and they too will fall away. Throughout the visual loop, we recited to each strand of hair, “I wish you well and happiness.” We repeated this exercise for our skin, and then our body. Next we acknowledged our feelings - aches, worries, joy, heartbreaks, uncertainties, etc - that just like our hair, and skin, and life, nothing lasts forever and that any emotional state we are in is actually very brief and transient.

Since everything is temporal, then there is no need to concern ourselves with complications. We consciously label each feeling as “impermanence” and allow it to, like the cycle of hair growth that we had visualised before, grow, die, and repeat itself again.
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The repetition, Phra Goh explained after the session, is the evidenced-based approach to mantra recitation to bring us peace, and we can - and should - practice it anytime. By inculcating this mantra in our daily lives, the better we would be at managing our emotions.

The beauty about meditation is that the journey will be different for each of us. Our inner voice, guardian spirit, voice of god, the universal source, whatever-you-may-call-it, will distill the lesson we need to learn on a subconscious level.
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For me, I walked away from the session accepting that I cannot change people’s preconceived assumptions of me, and that my anger, my joy, my successes, and failures are worth the same as a single strand of hair. Regardless of how others feel about themselves or towards us, we wish them well and happiness.

I’m looking forward to next session. This time, I might actually consider sitting on the chair.

Hello everyone, thank you for taking the time to visit this page. If you are here, it could only mean one thing - you're a fan of Supernatural Confessions (SC), or you like ghost stories.
 
I've had many thoughts in my head over the past many years and some of them were really mind-blowing if I could say so myself, but I never really told anyone, so they remained mostly in my head. If I had documented them, I bet they make for good reading.

I thought that since we have this platform now, and I'd like to think that many of you were would be interested in the things that went on behind the scenes of Supernatural Confessions, I've decided to use the platform as a way to air my thoughts and for you to get a peek behind the curtains at how and why things are done the way they are at Supernatural Confessions.

You might have noticed that SC has revamped itself at the start of the year and that is by design. We have come a long way since our humble beginnings, and I intend to say true to the original vision and mission. At this juncture, I feel certain names need to be mentioned and recognised for SC's current place in the universe. In chronological order - Jane Franklin, Grace Chai, Tim Oh, Alvin de Cruz, Eugene Toh (ET), Janan, Jonathan Lim, Cici, Sonia Khurana, Melvin, Wayne, Manesh, Joachim "Kim" Then, Joseph de Cotta, Cara, Lynn, Ivan, Bill and Matt. Honourable mention: Joel, Alan, KK, Ericsson, Cinzia, ZP Matt, Ray, Desmond, Esther, Ariel, Hermant, Kathy, Linda, Mark, Shi Min, Carlos, Oliver, Jun Hao, Kimberly, Marc, and many others.

We started off with just my iPhone 5, a pen and notepad. The mission was simple - everyone who has had a paranormal encounter should have a safe space to tell their story without being ridiculed. The place is Supernatural Confessions. 
We grew, and we grew, and we grew, organically. No click baits, no buying subscriber count, no blitz strategy. We just kept doing what we promised to do. And we couldn't have done it without you.

At the start of this year, I found myself at a crossroad. Real life was getting hectic - a man must be able to put food on the table, after all. Running Supernatural Confessions was taking up as much time as my day job, if not more. I had a decision to make: let SC ride into the sunset and perhaps die a silent death, or make a choice to shift my attention away from the grind of a day job and focus my efforts into SC to take it to a professional level.

I met Tim Oh for teh-and-eggs at Ya Kun one morning and shared my vision with him.

"You always had big dreams for SC," he said. "Even from way back, I just wanted it to remain as a podcast, but you wanted to do live stream and more. I'm happy for you."

"Dreams come with a price tag, Tim," I replied, stirring my teh c kosong. 

"Yes, and that's why if anyone can do it for SC, it would be you, and it's not something you could just sub out to just about anyone to do it. SC is you; you are SC."

"SC needs to continue with or without me."

"Are you ready to let it go?"

"I'll set it up proper, then at some point the community will have to take it over. New leadership, new ideas, but the mission doesn't change."

"Then you have your answer." 

And that was the defining line that made me decide to drop everything and go pedal-to-the-metal with Supernatural Confessions.

Well, we'll see how this year goes. And you, my friends, get the front row seats to witnessing either the greatest transformation of SC, or the most painful crush-and-burn of Eugene Tay.

Stay tune to this page for more updates. P.s. If you would like to support us by buying us coffee, you could head over to this page - buymeacoffee.com/superconfess.

- Eugene Tay